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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CzxR8OH-fDQ Woa.... I got into my ride DRUNK 2 sundays ago and drove drunk really fast all over town.....daring the cops to try and pull me over....had enough of life...and wanted to die.... NO cops in sight....anywhere! So I got back to where I was and parked it...cried....and said, "Ok Indian God! Won't let me die!? Well....help me live!!!" The last two weeks was the hardest two weeks of my life.... Today was a breakthrough!!! Can't get into details yet, but I thought I would link Mariah's song as a feel good moment.... for I'm back!!!!! .....to be continued.....

http://www.canadaka.net They control my replies. They remove anything they wish. Right now this pink woman named "Theyknows***!" appears to know that I am limited, so she is allowed to grab me between the legs anytime she wants, this makes her appear wiser.....since the reader only reads what they read....not knowing that there is more to it than just the words that are CONVEYED.... nothing has changed.....all the history about us is over 80% wrong.....yet you believe it. I heard an ad mock that on the radio...which fast food company was that, "And you believe that?" 'Yeah, because I read it in a book!'

The way Catholics, Christians, Canadians all capitalized on this land with such productive lies and thievery? You are the resulting COMMODITY that came from such a capitalistic conquest. I wrote this to all the forum sites I communicate with. I only copy and paste it for you because YOU are the product of denial that I speak to the world about! So you not purchasing a book from me is like the NHL worrying about how much cash Canadian arena's clear in a year compared to the US......

The Canadians not long ago simply knew how to say, "Get over it! It's in the past!" All of a sudden, the government decided to settle the score (on the Cath-licks behalf) with rez school survivors...which I RESPECT...I don't respect MOST Canadians who are YET to get what comes back around! You are in a PRIMATIVE stage of public schooling. Look at the USA? Their public schools are CURSED. Only the priviledged have their kids in private schools. Your "Christian" schools will be short lived...your children who attend will only live in such denial for so long. Now we are breaking into more of that ugly old Canadian shell (called your heart) and Canadians can't stand the stink of their own hearts, they still simply know how to say, "Get over it! It's in the past!" Match the offer that your Ancestors kept borrowing from indian Peter and paying indian Paul and pay off your debt.....I think you are afraid of YOUR own medicine! The last thing you want US to say is, "GET OVER IT!!! IT'S IN THE PAST!!!" But it won't rain all the time.....hang in there indians and the minority few Canadians who respect us! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyHevb1eOrk The Canadians had decades on end to move so far ahead....yet you are STILL only a few paychecks ahead of us!!! Still the peasant! Why don't YOU get over your peasant mindframe, put THAT in the past, and deal with this present like a MAN or a WOMAN!!!! Canadian cowards!

I have to report to this 'drug and alcohol' place 3 days a week. The first 2 days are 1 hour "group" sessions where all of us 'addicts' basically shoot the shit together about life issues.... The third day I meet one on one with a personal counsellor...counSELLor.... If anything, I am challenging ALL beliefs that came to this land....for I have a GROWING authority with all the impossible odds I faced...which is equal to walking on water.....and I have only just begun this journey.... It is a lonely life when you lead....a way that doesn't exist....but I have an army of dead indians who root for me...encourage me in my sleep....who are there with me...or for me....or from me..... His Master's Table was my most powerful pages from the website I created....it is amazing how popular that site became...how many from around the world would read into my life...my beliefs....my world..... Here is how I see your Jesus....the stingy bastard who couldn't stay where HE belonged...HE had to come over to THIS land and do what HE did to MY people with all of the world now here to feed....off His Master's Table: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoxkYblqLdA I went to WAR against Jesus...against Canada....against the WHITE mentality! For "white" people isn't a people....it is a mindframe! YOU are PINK people....to the ones who hate indians....YOU are LIGHT RED people.....to the ones who decide to respect and/or love my people..... For there are only 3 nations in the world: Black Nation, Yellow Nation, RED Nation! YOU were summoned here by MY God to join your DARKER half of the RED NATION so we could feed the world....instead you came over...with your primative "white" mentality....and fed yourself....as The First Nation....WE are not The First Nation...YOU are....WE are The Hosts Of The Land....Mother Nature...is our Goddess...Her Husband....MY God....keeps me alive..... For my Ancestors who were even my Eldership when I was young....said, "It will take ONE man.....to change the course of our history...." I AM...that one man....and by next spring....you will purchase a copy of my upcoming book....that I now write....that is more powerful than my website and life combined..... peaCe

All of me has awaken....the last while....the flight of The Crow....the quickness of the fox.....the ability to starve and conserve strength as The Wolf.....the presence of The Grizzly to keep safe.....and the enduring Black Bear who remains forever odd among this domestic new world..... ......now the most dangerous part of me has tired out....and is able to sleep.....as the more calm of me can guide my spirit towards the final platform of my dream in this life.... I think of all that I am.....just another bum mule indian from a reservation with nothing to his name....no real friends to call his own....no woman who would love him.....not the strength of family to compete against anyone else who has such strength.......yet here I am....where I always dreamed I would be...... I dropped from size 44 to 38 in less than 5 months! I have maintained my work ethic and won respect of new friends..... And I am ready....I don't know exactly what for....... But my Dead Indian God isn't at all dead.....and my Ancestors who I pray to....are here with me!!!!! They can be with you too.....you just need to abandon all other hopes that has brought our culture to such a hopeless end...... The end is near......and we need to turn away from all the other gods who came to this land....and turn back to Mother Nature....and Her Husband....who is our one true God....for He isn't dead.....or defeated....He waits for you.......as He waited for me.....and I found Him..... This week you will read into my life and what He is making possible that was always impossible....... peaCe

Rather you fools.... Sure it seems like I broke the Canadian laws and fell to my death of freedom from this land that was once mine......at least the 120 acres on Babine Lake..... But I didn't just fall...I fell for a purpose..... The day after I fled Canada? The weekend I fled? The week after? You could only imagine who and how many worried of me as I fled my land....my people....the very country that set out to DEFEAT everything about us!!!!! How many people cried....how many people got drunk...and fought over the truth about me....and the supposed truth against me..... 2200 people in my nation alone....I am well aquainted with over 80% of them! Yet here I am....at the edge of Eternity......experiencing the end result...of our loss...... For we have not yet lost.....not at all..... And I will return to my land......and live!

Losing everything to the world....I thought I would share a passage from my latest book Dean Koontz - Odd Hours: ---"Love somebody from when you're nineteen, one day he's the same as ever, next day dead. So many tears, they seem to wash somethin' out of you, they leave this emptiness." 'Loss is the hardest thing,' I said. 'But it's also the teacher that's the most difficult to ignore.' Her fanning hand went still. She regarded me with an expression that I took to be surprised agreement. Because Birdie seemed to expect me to elucidate, I fumbled out what I thought she might want to say herself: 'Grief can destroy you - or focus you. You can decided a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. Or you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time, so much more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time, so much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see it wasn't just a movie and a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together, not just scrubbing a floor or washing dishes together or worrying over a high electric bill. It was everything, it was the why of life, every event and precious moment of it. The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it, to the sanctit of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of the loss but by the gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness, to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life.' After a moment, she fanned her face again, and closed her eyes. ---

"Ya, problem is, that doesn't seem to be working out. Or is it just me?" Actually, every generation of Canadians have always excluded indians in all areas of their life. From their financial infrastructures, to their social lives, right down to basic daily rights as a human being. Go to ANY establishment, ANY church, ANY pub and bring up the subject of indians. If there are indians there? Canadians will be very careful of what they say. If there are NO indians and just Canadians? You will hear some of the craziest shite about us which is at all not true. If there are TOURISTS from anywhere in the world present? The exadurations will be so far fetched? That most tourists would listen to it. For the Canadians, their media, and their history books through their educational system will all attest to the very same lies. Which is fine. If there was no favoritism, neither side could complane. There was favoritism. The Canadians had us reserved so they could SECURE themselves with land, jobs, and good credit with the bank. Only in the 70s were indians finally allowed off the reservation to compete. But to this day, Canadians will cringe at the thought of indians matching job for job, land for land, and debit for credit! So no matter how you slice it? We indians are entitled to at least one final payout each. Perhaps then we could meet you face to face...for we have never seen a collective face. The residential school settlements is the closest you adingdangdoos came to looking at us. Even there you all mock us accordingly, just as your dead old people have to our Ancestors before. I mean, really, would it be soooo bad to be a Canadian. THAT is what we have been trying to do since you first immigrants showed up, SHARE with you. But to this day, even your most gorgeous blondes will cringe at the sight of us and think, "Ewww!! Indian!" Go to ANY reservation, you will not see ANY blonde bouncing around in tight spandex jogging around....perhaps it is SOOOOO bad being INDIAN....NOT Canadian....eh!? Look at what the entire country would have to gain on both sides. Look what CROWNLAND has gained on the one side. Go to ANY reservation and see Chief n Council fat off the land as the REAL indians hunger for ONE chance....this is where a one time buy out would prove itself. For the Chief n Council would no longer be able to collect money from the government and claim they take care of the real indian when they just rob Canadian tax and rob the indians with that same money. That is getting paid three times over!!!! Believe me, INDIAN incompetence is everywhere. And I can't stand that more than I could stand any other incompetence! For that is a double denial! Canadian denial is understandable. PINK people calling themselves WHITE. If I was pink? I would call myself WHITE for WHITE sounds more honorable than PINK does! I dunno, maybe Canadians are happy having a group they can always complain about and First Nations are happy having a group they can always blame. BLAME is a poor and weak word to use. A cope out word that Canadians use when they don't know what the hell is really going on. Most Canadians are pawns used by their government and plod along one square at a time as they believe their media, their church pastors, and each other. If it wasn't so hard getting over the border, I would have left this country long ago! But Niagra Falls is where I can work safely and get paid cash each day. But when I can, I will leave this land for good....for this was my land....now it is all yours....but you ALONE didn't defeat us...it was the WORLD who came and needed, so they took....like you did. We are already history, we are just too strong to just accept that! For we are still alive itch!!!!

1384 hits on this thread alone, yet NONE of you can honestly say if you believe in or out with the original people of this land who gives a shit if we ask for some of your tithe or some of our land back or some night with your blondes we have been here asking for shit long before you got here with your shit the only shit that isn't at all shit are your women, which is why you are able to continue that has always been the only reason. What, you think you are such a man without them? Try it! Without them to hide behind!

No, not the adingdangdoo "white" mentality way of mocking the world train of thought there angus the rotting beef The belief that kept this land looking the day after creation when the world showed up. The hell with a wheel, we are talking a trio of nations that was all of a sudden replaced by a wonder bread wheel of systematic capitalism. You know, the PINK people on top of the world pretending they are white while the black and yellow nation try to mimic them; all the time all THREE nations reside in the RED nation territory. The belief where our God is SO COOL, He lets all of you here with YOUR Gods and YOUR beliefs and build YOUR buildings and rape my people in them and continue to let your Jesus and your Harper RAPE the shit out of our Mother Nature....that belief! That belief where you would sooner dismiss it and go play who is the skid of the land compared to living for peace...and paying the price for peace. You would sooner make $5000 in your rape of my Mother Nature and tithe your $500 to whatever belief system you use to resort to a flippin wheel! THAT kind of belief angus the rotting beef, continue, and so will I. For I am just getting warmed up! Wear a WHITE shirt tomorrow, and ask any stranger....as a matter of fact, ask TEN strangers, "Am I white or pink?" See what they tell you! YOU Are in a belief system that keeps you in color denial. YOU CLAIM you are WHITE when you are pink. WE claim that you made a deal with us and didn't keep it. Yet the world believes you because they are just a coward as you are. And my dead indians are yet to show you what kind of a world you live in. Jesus can't help you now. For your ass is ours!!!!!

Actually Most "Canadians" won't hug a native, they will find ways to complain about tax, scowl at them, and all gather together in their skid bunches. Canada is still quite primative as we await the skids n snobs of Canada to evolve. How much more land, resource, jobs, and toys will it take for them to be happy enough to say, "Thanks for the land! Here, have a beer!" (Especially those stingy ass blondes of Canada! The blondes away from North America are a world away from these ones!)

"White" isn't a skin color It is a mentality that was used by the pink people against the indians of the land. Now we have east indians from India who use the same "white" mentality when they rent to the same indians of the land. Anguz the whatever, you answer your own question. Quit being such an A Ding Dang Doo!

BaSICK question, no answer You all come up with the same arguement over and over again. Why not answer with a new train of thought? Do you believe or don't believe in your "Native Canadians?" And why or why not? And what is with this white business? We are not white, we are pink! Pin triple k!

I notice quite a few of you have a strong opinion of the Native Canadians in Canada. How many of you actually lived amongst them on reservations? As an outsider here in the US, I am curious as to how you know them so well based on what the media teaches you. Furthermore, how come we win the Stanley Cup each year? Is this the bigger fish syndrome?